Always deep inside I knew something was off,
Since the day I met you things were awfully odd,
And after years and years of loving you so,
I found out something is terribly wrong.
To tell you that I know what no one knows,
To confess that I never trusted you at all,
To say that I know what was meant to be unknown,
Is so hard maybe I shouldn’t say anything at all.
I know I had no right to snoop around
And I should have respected your ground
Oh honey I wish I wouldn’t have done it as well
Because the info backfired in my face.
And I’m here torn apart because is not my right to call you out,
Because I know you want to keep it under warps,
Until you finally figure this thing out
not a word will leave this mouth.
But in the mid time I’m here pondering if I’m strong enough,
If I can live with what I know,
If its time to fall out of love from the only man I have ever loved.
I know it’s not your fault and is something you can’t help,
It must be something very hard to bear,
And I know it will hurt you to know that I am aware.
I think repeatedly on leaving you but,
How can I explain my reasons my abrupt decisions?
How can I tell you that I know what I know,
If doing so means destroying us.
I know what I know and it’s eating me alive,
I can’t tell my friends I’m embarrassed to talk it out,
I’m ashamed that I still love you no matter what,
I’m scared that I could live with this the rest of my life.